A second darkness falls with the night, Slipping behind my eyes from the afternoon shadows, A thick, greasy film that stinks of fear and sorrow, It’s a foreign invader, the embodiment of sickness, Although symptoms are common, at night they feel extreme. It comes when I’m alone, painting fearful images. No matter how I try to cope, the torment continues, It enters my sleep, and pours in thick black nightmares, Voices tell me I’m dying, whispering sweetly in my ear, A pain here, a cough there, it has me in its icy grip, The only thing that combats it is company, distraction, or morning. Tomorrow it will regroup and return with a vengeance, For another night of torment, grief, and torture, My mind can’t rest, the darkness feeds on fear, I’m not alone, millions of people greet this stranger nightly, But that doesn’t help me when I’m struggling to sleep, Where it pokes, prods, and toys with my emotions, The morning light banishes the beast, forcing it to flee, Until we battle again tomorrow night, for control of me.
A great mountain looms over these antique lands, Mysterious and proud the stone giant stands, Its snow-capped peaks have a perilous beauty, Climbing to the summit is an impossible duty, Behind its back is an endless ocean scene, And in its shadow are lands pastoral and green, In its ancient forest, the air is heavy and old, Fern trees and giant mushrooms grow uncontrolled, It’s said that trees often walk the forest floor, Gathering in sacred spaces to discuss forest law, If you stay hidden you may hear them creeping around, But if they find you, you’ll be crushed into the ground, Few animals dare to venture into this forgotten place, And any men who enter vanish without a trace, So, choose wisely before you visit the forest of dreams For the mountain is King, and his soldiers are trees.
I need a quiet place in my mind where I can be free, Where there’s room to grow if the anger lets me, I’m not a monster or an overly complicated man, I just have my own problems, and I cope the best that I can.
When the night comes dark and cold, and I lay here awake, I’m invaded by negative thoughts that I cannot shake, Morning comes, no change of mind, no great revelations, Just trains of thought leaving their inhospitable stations.
I even try to distract myself with guided meditation, But my thoughts are so loud all I get is frustration, With all this negative thinking, I’ll never be content, Because at day’s end, it’s with my thoughts alone I have spent.