My time on Earth
has been tiring.
In some moments
I’m unaware
if I am living
or an apparition.
I feel more alien
lately
than human.
I spend my time
observing
rather than
interacting
with humanity.
We are not the same.
We are from opposite
solar systems.
Mirror images.
We look the same
but within me
I feel
inherently different.
I don’t always understand
their language
nor their preoccupations
with congenial living.
Or the need
to fill their worlds
with so many
competing sounds.
I process differently.
Irrationally.
Constantly.
Burning a fuel
that I feel
I am running out of.
Fuel to power
the disguise.
To keep the mask
in place.
To blend.
To belong.
Like a chameleon
cold-blooded,
searching
for a place
to warm itself.
Somewhere
I can hide.
Observe.
Recharge.
Exist.









