What do I fear?
Death,
Or what it brings,
I fear the finality,
Of the loss,
Of the momentary sadness,
But most of all,
I fear that what I have shared,
With the meager gifts I was given,
Were not enough to remember me fondly.
Eight drink limit
One drink to sadness,
One drink for those you’ve lost,
One drink to what life has cost,
One drink to say goodbye,
One drink as you try to survive,
One drink for regret,
One drink to forget,
One drink is never enough.
Farewell
Too many nights, my hands cover my eyes,
I’m not ashamed to cry as I think of you,
Saying goodbye to you is the hardest,
What do I say to the one who gave me everything,
Sleep now, sleep and be at peace,
I can’t chase these monsters away,
Like you once did for me,
I don’t have that power,
I love you, please suffer no more,
You’re so tired, please rest,
I’ll join you when my time comes,
And we will hold each other again,
The way we once did.
A time to pause and take stock: not a poem
Today I hit pause on all of my social media accounts, why? Because I stuggle to see their relevance to art anymore, because their obscure algothrymic rules mitigate any growth of an artist without $, I think their greed has made them reduntant, and I’m too unwell and tired to put up with it anymore.
Amusingly, I just spent quite some time writing this into a massive post, but satisfyingly, I just hit delete, why? Because fuck social media and the fake people who live there in, I don’t have the mental energy to deal with them anymore.
regards,
Dan
I Disconnect from you
I feel a certain sense of disconnection,
It is a comfort, numb and reassuring,
I don’t want to be a part of your world,
I’m not interested in any of your plans,
I have already given everything I want to,
There is not much left inside for myself,
So now, a farewell as I disconnect from you,
As I enter a final future, one without pain,
The end days, where I remain unsolicited,
Unaffected by comment, unhindered thoughts,
My time will be my own, so I push you all away,
Your mental thefts have not gone unnoticed.
Keep a light on for me
There are storms sometimes at night,
Deep inside of me where nobody sees,
When my mind races into fight or flight,
And panic brings me to my knees,
I can’t live the same way anymore,
Because it hurts too much to say goodbye,
Constant nightmares shake me to the core,
Until I can’t take the pain inside,
Please keep a light on for me,
On stormy nights when my mind does roam,
Keep a light on for me please my love,
So that I can find my way back home.
We are nothing
From the poorest dysentery filled gutter,
The stars still shimmer as bright and unreachable,
As they do from a billionaire’s garden.
Inner Space
Although in orbit —
I feel the stars are no nearer.
Unable to see the light
With blind eyes closed, relying on weaker senses,
Stumbling forever onwards, destination unclear,
There’s no light in a reality fueled by fear,
More machine than man now, that’s humanity today,
Unlovable, unmemorable, unloyal creatures,
Over opinionated, self-indulged and dim featured,
Artificial is his intelligence now,
The dissident speaks without a mandible,
As simulation paints a future brightly tangible,
Changes have been subtle and constant,
Corporations are the necks that turn the head,
Governments of a people, corrupt and morally dead,
The dissidents no longer speak their mind,
And the world seems unwilling to see the light,
As constant technological dopamine numbs any fight.
Two moments in one
In the infinite darkness of space,
I drift,
My ship is set to auto pilot,
Silently moving forward,
Zero navigation to find my way home,
Blind in the dark,
There is no sound other than my breathing,
A numbness fills me,
Not quite alive, but unable to die,
I am in stasis.
"I'm not sure if this works, but it felt like I was telling two tales at the same time, each line flows together, and yet, each second line tells separate tale, both combining at the end."
Dan Verkys 