Gripe and Shrew

Fido Shrew,
A curious little gentleman,
Hunched of back and bent with age,
Arrives at Nocturna
Promptly upon the twelfth night.

With a courteous tap
To the brim of his black felt hat,
He acknowledges Hargraves,
Who returns the greeting
With a single respectful nod.

In one hand,
Shrew carries an ebony cane,
Polished smooth
By many decades of faithful service.

In the other,
A small black wooden cage,
Within which sits
A glossy magpie.

Her name is Matilda.
As they pass through the foyer,
She greets the house
With a cheerful warbling song,
As though announcing
An old friend’s arrival.

Without hesitation,
Shrew makes his way
Through the smoke-softened main room,
Past whispered conversations,
Books exchanged in silence,
And glasses catching
The amber glow of lamplight.

He slips into a private booth
At the rear of the club,
Where a heavy curtain
Of black velvet
Trimmed with lace
Is quietly drawn.

There,
He waits.

Not long afterwards,
McKinley Gripe arrives.
A short, broad gentleman,
Impeccably dressed
In a well-tailored black suit.

His neatly combed grey beard,
Small round spectacles,
And weathered leather satchel
Have accompanied him
For as many years
As anyone can remember.

He offers Hargraves
A warm greeting,
Before being shown
To the same secluded booth.

“Ah…
Lovely to see you.”

He declares cheerfully,
Allowing his satchel,
Heavy with books and manuscripts,
To fall upon the vacant chair
With a satisfying thud.

Shrew peers over his spectacles.

“Lovely to see me?”
His dry, crackling voice replies.
“Since when?”

Gripe smiles.
“I was talking to Matilda.”

He gently taps
The magpie’s cage.
The bird answers
With an indignant warble.

Both old men
Burst into laughter.
The curtain closes.
No one hears another word.

Gripe and Shrew
Have kept this peculiar appointment
For longer than most members
Can remember.

Since they themselves
Were young gentlemen.

On the twelfth night
Of every second month,
They meet.
They exchange barbs.
They exchange books.
Manuscripts.
Letters.
The occasional impossible curiosity.

A glass of red wine
Is usually shared.
Sometimes a fine cigar.
Always conversation.

For precisely
One hour
And six minutes.

Never longer.
Never shorter.
When the hour concludes,
The curtain parts.

One gentleman departs.
Then, several minutes later,
The other.
Never together.

No one knows
What passes between them.
Nor where either man goes
Beyond the wallpapered sanctuary
Of Nocturna.

No one asks.
That,
After all,
Is one of the rules.

And this curious little ritual
Is but one of many
Hidden quietly
Behind the black iron door
Of Nocturna.

Nocturna

A single crimson lamp
Glows through the midnight rain,
Illuminating a modest brass plaque
Bearing one word,
Nocturna.

Its light is no ordinary lantern,
But a beacon,
A quiet invitation
To an eclectic gathering
Hidden from the waking world.

This forgotten quarter of the city
Is seldom travelled.
Dark.
Cobblestoned.
Silent.
The old district rises around it,
Its weathered façades
Bathed in pale moonlight,
Watching patiently
As another night begins.

Of its many narrow laneways,
Selwyn Lane
Is the one most avoided.
Especially after dusk.

A narrow ribbon
Of black brick and old stone,
Untouched by modernity,
As though time itself
Forgot to reclaim it.

Halfway along the lane,
The façade of Nocturna waits.
An arched black iron door.
A small multipaned window,
Its glass too dark
To reveal what lies beyond.

Ornate Victorian stonework,
Blackened by soot,
Softened by rain,
Hints at a grandeur
Long surrendered to age.

By day,
The building is almost invisible,
Hemmed in
By the taller backs
Of forgotten buildings,
As though the city itself
Has turned away from it.

But night remembers.
And so does Nocturna.
Its patrons are never seen
In daylight.
Pale faces.
Black coats.
Quiet footsteps.
They move through darkness
Like shadows
Returning home.

Keepers of forgotten knowledge.
Collectors of curious things.
Librarians.
Storytellers.
Artists.
Magicians.
Dreamers.

People for whom
The ordinary world
Has never quite fit.

On the twelfth night
Of every month,
Without announcement,
Without invitation,
They gather.

Books change hands.
Stories are exchanged.
Strange artefacts
Pass quietly
From one custodian
To another.

Old friendships are renewed.
Ancient secrets are whispered.
No records are kept.
No names are spoken.
And before dawn,
The gathering dissolves once more,
Leaving Selwyn Lane
Exactly as it appeared before,
Silent.
Empty.
Waiting patiently

For Nocturna
To awaken again.

Winter Vegetable

Today has seen
Winter in full bloom.
Miserable.
Cold.
Dark.

Both in the world,
And within me.

I feel out of step.
Unable to focus.
A disillusioned,
Unwilling participant
In this idiotic game
Called life.

I drift
Between waking
And sleep.
Yet even sleep
Offers little.

For days now,
Dreams have abandoned me.
Passing like the void,
Featureless and black.

There should be stories.
There should be colour.
Imagination unfolding
Beyond closed eyes.

Instead,
Everything feels
Unreachable.

Where are my mornings of creativity?
My afternoons of wonder?
My nights of awe?

Only numbness remains.
Grey,
Gruel-like days,
Without flavour,
Without purpose.

If today
Were a vegetable,
It would be kale.

The one nobody likes.

Endless

Endless
The endless grey sky.
Weariness
Without end.

Endless is this journey
Between worlds.
A constant yearning
For rest.
For peace.
For somewhere
To sit awhile.

These restless feet
Walk on.
Never content.
Never still.

Endless
Is the journey
Along
The Thunder Road.

Not All Paths Lie Open

The traveller came to a sudden stop,

As the valley floor began to rumble,

And the Thunder Road
Collapsed into flattened,
Sand-like ash.

The valley groaned.

From beneath the ancient earth,
A great screaming skull
Slowly surfaced,
Its cavernous mouth forever open.

Grey ash
Poured from every hollow,
Falling like dry snow
Across the valley floor.

From behind the skull,
Long black feathered wings
Slowly unfurled,

Sweeping forward
Past the screaming face,

Like an inky black crown
Enveloping the ancient skull.

Filthy dark turquoise rags,
Emerge, blindfolding the skull,
In a binding wrap.

Then,

From the place
Where the great wings joined,

Ribs emerged.

A spine followed.

A second screaming skeleton
Forced itself into the light,
Its bones twisting
And clicking into place,
As though remembering
A shape long forgotten.

Grey vines
Burst from the earth,

Winding themselves
Around bone,
Wing
And skull.

They tightened.

They constricted.

Binding the terrible creature
To the valley floor.

From the length of the exposed spine,
Small sprigs of twisted vine
Began to grow,

Spreading slowly,

Until flesh,
Bone,
Wing
And root

Had become
A single living monument.

The traveller stood silently,

Watching the impossible guardian
Complete its ancient form.

It soon became clear

That this path
Was not yet open.

Without resistance,

The traveller turned,

Returning once more
To the Five Ways,

Knowing the road
Would one day
Call again,

When enough
Had been learned.

Illness and imagination

It has been days
Since I dreamed.
Rest has become
Shallow,
My nights
Grey and distant.

A veil has fallen
Between myself
And the Dream Continent.

I miss
The sandy shores.
The emerald sea.
The distant mountains.
The cool streams
And quiet ponds
Among the wildflower fields.
Even the forest Devourers
Have fallen silent.

The ghosts,
Have wandered elsewhere.
Darkness itself
Keeps its distance.

There are no cranes.
No serpents.
Only a dull grey silence.
An empty feeling
Of abandonment.

I long to walk
Those familiar paths.
To breathe
The scented air.
To feel
The ocean spray.

Yet the veil remains.
And I cannot pass.
What strange magic
Has found me?

What cloud
Has settled over my mind,
Hiding
The Ocean of Dreams?

My body fights
To remain awake.
Sleep now brings
Only colourless thoughts.

Perhaps,
As I have learned before,
The only way beyond
Is through.
So I continue
My quiet journey,

Trusting that somewhere
Beyond this veil,
The world of dreams
Still waits,
Patiently,
For my return.

Finding Wonder

Some days leave you
With more questions than answers.
Less wonder.
More worry.

How do we turn that around?
How do we reverse the tide?
How do we see wonder everywhere,
And live freely,
Content?

Perhaps the answer
Is simply to live
One day at a time.
Not by chasing
The destination,
But by looking down,
Seeing where we are standing.

Not in the past.
Not in the future.
Buy right here,
Right now.

Spirit of the Thunder Road

The traveller had wandered
Through desolation
For unknown hours.

The barren plain gradually surrendered
To fields of volcanic stone.

With every step,
The path narrowed.

The black rock rose
Like towering walls
On either side.

Higher.
Higher still.
Until the grey sky itself
Was almost swallowed.

Stone and gravel showered the traveller.

The canyon groaned.

Then, silence.
The path ended.

A ghostly figure emerged
From the drifting mist.
A woman.
Her long pale dress
Hung in tattered folds,
Its edges dissolving
Into the swirling grey.

She stood unmoving.

Blocking the western road.

Where her face should have been,
Only black veins of smoke
Twisted through the mist.

An ancient axe rested
Across her chest.

“Who walks this road?”

Her voice echoed
As though spoken
By many mouths at once.

“I am a traveller.”
“To whom do I speak?”

The apparition remained still.

“We are many.”

An elderly man’s face
Materialised within the smoke.
Then faded.

“We are none.”

A young woman.
Gone.

“We are the Spirits
Of the Thunder Road.”

More faces emerged.

A forgotten friend.
A teacher.
A stranger glimpsed once
Long ago.

Each appeared only long enough
To be recognised.
Then the mist reclaimed them.

“Why do your faces change?”

“They are yours.”
“My memories?”
“Your attachments.”

The smoke drifted slowly.

“They shaped you.”

“They continue
To shape you.”

The traveller watched
As another face emerged.

A child.
Their own face.
Hopeful.
Untouched.
Then gone.

“Are they dead?”

“Some.”
A pause.

“Some merely belong
To another life.”

The traveller lowered their gaze.
“Why have I been brought here?”
The canyon answered
With many voices.

“Because every traveller
Mistakes Limbo
For a prison.”

“It is not.”

The words echoed
Among the stone walls.

“It is a passage.”

“And there is a way out?”

“There has always been.”

The traveller looked ahead.
“I see no road.”

“You are standing upon it.”

“I don’t understand.”

The spirit slowly raised its axe
Toward the darkness beyond.

“There is no road
Around Limbo.”
“No hidden gate.”
“No secret passage.”
“No escape.”
Only silence remained.

Then,

“The only way beyond…

…is through.”
The words settled heavily.
The traveller remembered.
The swamp.
The drowning mud.
The Hollow.
The creature.
The fear.
The acceptance.

“Then every road…”
“…is a lesson.”

The spirit finished the thought.

“You cannot outrun grief.”
“You cannot walk around fear.”
“You cannot hide from loss.”
“You pass through them.”
“And when you emerge…”

The mist shifted again.

This time
The face became
The traveller’s mother.

“…you are no longer
The one who entered.”

Then,
A brother.
Gone.

A friend.
Gone.
A lover.
Gone.
A rival.
Gone.

The traveller again.
Older.

Then,
No face at all.
Only mist.

“So every journey changes us.”
The spirit lowered the axe.
“That is why
The roads exist.”
The canyon trembled.
The mist slowly parted.

“You understand.”
“I think I do.”

“No.”
The voices softened.
“You lived it.”
For the first time,
The spirit stepped aside.

“The western road
Is open.”

The traveller continued.

The canyon narrowed once more
Before ending abruptly.

Beyond it stretched
A bottomless abyss.

Across the void
Hung an ancient rope bridge.

Its ropes sagged
Beneath impossible age.

Every weathered plank
Held a single carved symbol.

An eye.
A key.
A serpent.
A hand.
A tree.
A flame.
A broken crown.

Each worn smooth
By countless travellers before.
The traveller stepped forward.
The bridge groaned.
Each board shifted
Beneath uncertain feet.

The wind howled
Through the endless gulf.

Halfway across,
A sharp crack.
One rope snapped.
The bridge lurched violently.
Another rope failed.
Timbers splintered.
The traveller reached
For the remaining rope,
It slipped away.

Then,
Nothing.
The bridge vanished above.
The world became
Endless white mist.
No wind.
No sound.
No up.
No down.
Only falling.
Darkness gathered.
Everything disappeared.

The traveller awoke
With a violent scream.
Heart pounding.
Breath ragged.

They lay once more
Upon the Thunder Road.
Only a short distance away,
The Path Keeper waited.

“You have returned.”

“I have.”

“And what did
The western road teach?”

The traveller stood quietly.
At last they answered.

“That there is no road
Around the hardest parts of life.”
“Only through them.”

The Path Keeper smiled.

“Then the western road
Served its purpose.”

The traveller looked north.
Far beyond the drifting ash,
A great volcano
Breathed smoke
Into the colourless sky.

Without another word,
They turned,
And walked toward it.

Behind My Eyes

There are worlds behind my eyes,
Places wondrous and vast.

I seek them in my dreams,
And share them
With my waking mind.

They ask for nothing
But to be heard,
Whispered like secrets
Between family,
Between friends.

There are worlds behind my eyes,
Places beyond the Dream Sea.
Take my hand.
Come with me.

Awaken, Rise

Awaken. Rise.
From the silence,
A deep droning horn blast echoes.

The grey sky fills with beating wings.
Chaos takes wing,
As countless ravens darken the heavens.
The Thunder Road splits and bleeds.

Ash rides upon the wind,
Concealing ancient secrets.

And a new traveller is born into purgatory.
Destined to wander.
Destined to learn.
Destined to follow forgotten roads
Through,

The Valley of Ashes.