The Scent of Death

There is something about the scent of death,
The odour perplexes the mind,
Pungent, sickly, memorable,
A reminder of everything dark imagined.

It lingers beneath the skin,
Long after the body is gone,
Awakening primal instincts,
Whispering that all flesh is temporary.

We speak of courage and understanding,
We dress mortality in philosophy and faith,
That smell strips away every comforting illusion,
Leaving only the certainty:

That one day we too shall become memory,
A name upon the lips of others,
A shadow lingering in fading recollections,
And silence carried upon the wind.

Cartographer of Dreams

Do I dare delve too far into the worlds I create?
They occupy my mind during daylight,
And often manifest with each night,
Am I venturing too far beyond the shallows,
That skirt the edge of the Ocean of Dreaming.

Here, I have control of my emotions,
I don’t expect readers to understand,
In dreaming, although still sullen, I’m not as helpless,
Not weighed down by the real world outside my door.

I’m going to visit deeper inland,
I envision a vast dream continent,
Where everything I create exists,
I will need to populate this world more,
Document its inhabitants, flora and fauna.

I’m excited by the prospect of another world,
That connects all the pieces of my scattered puzzle.

Manifesto of Withdrawal

The world is hurting,
Everywhere, darkness now exists within the light,
People are lost,
The Earth is being devoured by the greedy,
Like crows stripping flesh from a carcass.

I’m drifting away,
Isolating, spending more time within imagination,
It’s for my own survival,
There’s nothing civil about civilisation anymore.

The Valley of Ashes

Born from a series of dark fantasy artworks and an ambient album, available at Bandcamp, The Valley of Ashes is a desolate realm suspended between life and death.

Step beyond the art and music and enter the mythology.

In the World Building section, you can now read In the Valley of Ashes, a new poetic tale following a lone wanderer as he travels the Thunder Road through a bleak landscape of ash, memory, and forgotten souls.

After a long journey of its own, this work is finally complete, and I am pleased to invite readers into this desolate realm.

The Valley of Ashes will continue to evolve, with new poetry, imagery, stories, and perhaps even audio additions emerging over time as the world grows and reveals more of itself.

I am Fruit Loops

In life, creative people are often referred to as fruit loops,
But that is okay.
Fruit loops are well-rounded,
Full of colour, have excellent taste,
And are rich in character.
They can blend into their surroundings,
While adding their own vibrant presence.

At first, they may seem hard,
But time reveals their softness.
You never quite forget them;
Their sweetness lingers after they’re gone.

Because their explosive, colourful lives are often brief,
They are gone too soon.
Yet in the wake of their absence,
They leave the bland brighter,
The ordinary more interesting,
And the world richer than before.

Odyssey

A measureless span of time had passed since I last made landfall.

My ship and shipmates had long ago been claimed by a maelstrom, leaving me alone upon an oarless, sail-less wooden vessel adrift upon a black and endless sea. Exhausted and starving, I drifted in and out of consciousness, waiting for death to claim me.

I awoke with a violent jolt. The boat had grounded upon a sandbar.

Weak and trembling, I climbed over the side. The land was slick and black, coated in foul-smelling slime that reeked of fish and decay. Each step sank into the gelatinous surface, making progress slow and exhausting.

The sandbar stretched endlessly in every direction, featureless and barely rising above the waterline.

Without warning, the ground gave way beneath me.

I slid helplessly down a steep incline, skidding across the slime-covered surface before plunging into waist-deep black water thick as oil.

Struggling onward, I waded through the darkness.

As I advanced, a great cliff slowly emerged from the depths before me, rising higher and higher until it towered overhead. In my weakened state the climb was torturous, each handhold earned through sheer determination.

Eventually I hauled myself onto a dry volcanic plateau.

The landscape was barren.
No trees, no birds, no life.
Only a colossal volcano rising from the centre of the island.
Toward it I travelled.

At the mountain’s base stood a vast stone archway carved directly into the rock. Set within it was an immense wooden door blackened with age.

The volcano rumbled deep beneath the earth.
The air smelled of sulphur and ash.
Fire crackled somewhere beyond the stone.

I pounded upon the door.
For a long moment nothing happened.
Then the door slowly opened.
Darkness waited beyond.
I stepped inside.

The great door closed behind me with a thunderous boom.
The sound of iron locks echoed through the cavern.
Ancient earth filled my lungs.
Following a solitary stone path through the darkness, I eventually arrived at a pair of towering doors.

I pushed them open and was blinded by light.
Before me stretched a paradise beyond imagining.
A vast garden overflowing with impossible beauty.
Ancient trees heavy with fruit.
Crystal streams winding through emerald grass.
Waterfalls tumbling into clear pools.
Flowers blooming in colours I had no names for.

For hours, or perhaps days, I wandered that place.
I ate sweet fruits. Gathered nuts and mushrooms.
Drank from cool streams and sparkling falls.
For the first time since the sea had claimed my world, I felt peace.

Eventually weariness overtook me.
I lay beneath an apple tree.
The grass was soft, the breeze was warm.
And I surrendered myself to sleep.
An impossible sleep.

When I finally awoke, the scent of apples had vanished.
The scent of disinfectant filled the air.
I opened my eyes into a white room.
Cold, sterile, and empty.
Leather restraints bound my wrists and ankles to a chrome-framed bed.
A barred window admitted only a thin shaft of grey daylight.
Across from me stood a heavy metal door.
Locked, beyond it echoed the screams of madmen,

Suddenly a hatch snapped open.
A pair of eyes appeared.
Watching, studying, judging.
Then the hatch slammed shut once more.

The silence that followed was deafening.
I lay motionless, staring at the ceiling.
Trying desperately to remember.
Had I truly drifted across a black and endless sea?
Had I climbed the volcanic island?
Had I walked among the gardens of paradise?
Had any of it been real?
Or had this room been my world all along?

And if so…

Why did I still miss the ocean?

Where the Ocean Meets the Stars

I find myself adrift upon an endless ocean,
Slick black waters cradling my pale body,
In a deathlike embrace.

Above me, countless stars burn within the darkness,
Their reflections shimmering upon the motionless sea,
As currents carry me farther from shore,
Farther into the dreaming deep.

The waters are calm,
Warm,
Unthreatening.

And from distant coral reefs,
I hear the choirs of sirens,
Their mournful songs drifting across gentle waves.

As I journey outward,
The stars seem to draw ever closer,
Until sea and sky become one,
And the horizon dissolves.

There, reality folds upon itself.

The ocean becomes the heavens,
And I find myself drifting once more,
Not upon black waters,
But through an inky sky,
Looking down upon the world below.

Beneath me, raven-haired sirens dance among the waves,
Beautiful,
Mesmerising,
And terribly deadly.

As I pass above them,
I glimpse the great serpent Grimvael,
His immense body coiling through the abyss,
Black scales twisting in the depths beneath the sea.

Though I drift safely among the stars,
His presence fills me with dread.

So I close my eyes,
And surrender to the current.

Carried ever onward,
Until my forlorn heart is delivered home,
To the quiet comfort of my bed.

There I lie,
Neither fully awake,
Nor fully asleep,
Lingering for a moment,
Between two worlds.

Fourteen Days to Dream

For fourteen days this June, creation has filled my senses,
Ideas gathering like storm clouds upon the horizon,
Each thought colliding with the next,
Sparking brightly against the architecture of my mind.

For fourteen days I have walked among possibilities,
Turning fragments into stories,
Dreams into landscapes,
And whispers into worlds.

The tide of stress has temporarily withdrawn,
Leaving the fertile sands of creativity exposed,
And for a fleeting moment,
The mind can breathe.

The great serpent Grimvael has retreated,
Coiling himself within his lightless pit,
His black scales hidden from thought and memory.

For now, his icy tendrils do not reach,
His suckered grasp does not cling
To old wounds and forgotten sorrows.

And in his absence,
The mind dares once more
To dream,
To imagine,
To create.

Lure of Dreamland

Sleep tempts me early this evening.

Rain pours steadily through the darkness outside,
While the wind rattles the house,
Causing the trees to hiss and whisper.

The winter air is cold and unfriendly,
A chill that presses against the glass,
Seeking entry.

I sit alone,
Listening to it all.

Sleep has come calling.

Ghostly fingers gently lower my eyelids,
Their touch patient,
Persistent.

I sit at my desk,
Warm beside the heater,
My thoughts growing heavy.

Yet still my head resists,
Fighting the summons of the Dreamlands,
Where emerald oceans glisten beneath starlit skies,
And strange vessels wander moonlit shores.

The rain continues to fall.
The wind continues to hiss through trees.
And sleep waits quietly,
Knowing it will win.

Nothing

Today I feel nothing.
I do not feel bad,
Nor do I feel good.
I drift somewhere between the two,
Indifferent to it all.

Yet I feel confused.
A little numb to my surroundings,
As though I stand just outside myself,
Watching the world move past.

I no longer feel the lure of creation
As I have these past two weeks,
Those fruitful days
Filled with stories, dreams, and possibility.

Now everything feels…
Quiet.
As though I have nothing to say.
Yet at the same time,
I desperately want to have something to say.

It is a peculiar emptiness,
A silence without peace,
A stillness without comfort.

And perhaps that is the source of my confusion.
Not sorrow.
Not joy.
Only the absence of both.