Podcast Episode: Ancient Sleepers And Abyssal Doom

This episode explores some of my bleakest and most doom-laden work, drawing heavily from my enduring love of cosmic horror. These selected pieces are both a homage and a love letter to the late, great H.P. Lovecraft, whose imagination helped shape my understanding of world-building and creative expansion.

Lovecraftian horror has always been a strange comfort to me. It taught me that an idea need not remain a single thing, it can grow, evolve, and become something far larger and more unsettling than its beginnings.

So venture forth if you dare. Beyond this point lies a landscape of ancient terrors, creeping dread, and no small amount of doom and gloom.

References:

Five Ways on the Valley Floor

I stood at a junction,
Knowing my fate.

Imprisoned within the Valley of Ashes,
There was nowhere left to go
But forward.

So I chose to explore.

Upon returning to the valley floor,
I was confronted with a quandary.

Before me stood Five Ways,
A junction where five roads
Split into five separate journeys.

At their centre rose a mound of skulls,
Bones and ash heaped into a small pale hill.

Seated upon its summit
Was an ancient creature.

Pale-skinned.
Legless.

Its face was withered and dry,
Possessing no visible features
Except for a vast black mouth.

Part hermit.
Part beast.

Long black hair hung across
Its bony chest
And swollen belly.

In one hand it held a long black pipe,
From which it occasionally drew a breath.

The smoke it exhaled
Seemed to thicken the surrounding mist.

Its other hand gripped
An ancient wooden staff.

Tattered strips of black and turquoise cloth
Hung from its length,
Hints of former splendour.

“Lost, are we?” the creature crackled.

“No,” I replied.
“I am beginning a new journey.”

The creature grumbled to itself
And drew deeply upon its pipe.

“Choose a path.”

A cloud of smoke drifted from its mouth.

“All paths from the Thunder Road
Return here eventually.”

It paused.

“When you return,
You will tell me of your travels.”

“Who are you?”
I asked cautiously.

“And why should I tell you anything?”

The creature laughed,
A sound like dry leaves scraping stone.

“I am the Keeper of the Path.”

Its staff struck the earth.

“I govern every journey’s end.”

A cold wind swept through the valley,
Lifting dust and ash into the air.

“From me,”
The Keeper said,

“You will learn why you are here.”

For a moment I considered the five roads.

Then I chose an eastern path.

Without another word,
I began to walk.

Behind me,
The Keeper drew once more upon its pipe.

Its eyeless face slowly followed my passing.

And so I embarked
Upon a new journey of self-discovery,

With the Thunder Road beneath my feet,

And storm clouds gathering above.

The Approaching Dark

Look toward the stars,
And behold what approaches.

The world is falling,

Swallowed by rising tides,
Crushed beneath an unknown power.

Illusion gives way to reality.
The truth can no longer be hidden.

Devoured by that ancient darkness
Awakening once more?

The Nightmare

The Forever Shadow
Looms across the land.

Dark angels circle overhead,
Their ravenous mouths agape.

The sky churns with ash and storm,
While the earth weeps blood.

Black rivers spread through the world,
Like ink-dark veins beneath pale skin.

Red-eyed, ashen faces
Stare into a godless sky,
Searching for answers,
Finding only silence.

And beneath the shadow,
A single question lingers:

When will this end?

Sorrow Steps Softly

Deep within the void,
something stirs.
Its serpentine inhabitant,
slithers,
churning the gut,
numbing the senses.
Within that indomitable blackness,
a distant storm rumbles.
Black clouds gather.
as sorrow approaches.

The Valley of Ashes

Born from a series of dark fantasy artworks and an ambient album, available at Bandcamp, The Valley of Ashes is a desolate realm suspended between life and death.

Step beyond the art and music and enter the mythology.

In the World Building section, you can now read In the Valley of Ashes, a new poetic tale following a lone wanderer as he travels the Thunder Road through a bleak landscape of ash, memory, and forgotten souls.

After a long journey of its own, this work is finally complete, and I am pleased to invite readers into this desolate realm.

The Valley of Ashes will continue to evolve, with new poetry, imagery, stories, and perhaps even audio additions emerging over time as the world grows and reveals more of itself.

Grimvael: The Serpent of Sorrows

In chambers hidden beneath remembrance,
Where old grief hangs like dust in ruined halls,
Where silence pools in the hollows of the mind,
And forgotten names drift downward like ash,
There coils Grimvael,
The sleepless serpent,
The black-mouthed keeper of sorrows,
The dream-krate of anxious souls.

No cradle bore him.
No heaven suffered him to rise.
He was born in the first trembling of memory,
When fear first looked backward,
And called itself thought.

He dwells not in flesh,
Nor cavern, or sea,
But in the labyrinth of recollection,
Among wilted childhood gardens,
Half-heard confessions,
The scent of mourning rooms,
The faces long buried beneath forgetting.

There he winds himself, endless and patient,
Through corridors of our unfinished grief.

His mouth is black as a crypt abandoned to rain,
A wound without gleam,
A silence ringed in hunger.
His venomous black tongue stirs there.
Where no serpent hiss escapes.
Only the sound of memory fraying.

Its darkness opens not outward, but inward,
As though the night itself had learned to feed.
From those jaws spill whispers stolen from sleeping men:

The words never spoken,
The apologies rotted to bone,
The dread of tomorrow,
The trembling knowledge
That joy departs unnoticed.

And his eyes, if eyes they may be called,
Sealed in ancient shadow,
for Grimvael has no need of sight.
He hunts by remembrance.
He tastes regret upon the spirit
As wolves scent blood upon the snow.
Across his body, black as drowned velvet,
the scales glisten with funeral sheen,
Obsidian pressed smooth,
By centuries of forgotten terror.

He coils in impossible spirals,
A cathedral of serpent flesh,
Each curve tightening around thought itself,
Until memory bends inward and becomes a prison.

Yet it is beneath him,
Beneath that terrible body that horror flowers.
A thousand suckers line his belly.
A thousand pale mouths,
Wet and patient as grave-lilies,
Ringed in trembling circles.
They cling, oh, how they cling.
To thoughts half-born.
To shame hidden beneath laughter.
To old wounds one swore forgotten.
To the sleepless turning of the midnight mind.

Each sucker fastens softly, almost tenderly,
Drawing from memory not blood,
But heartache.
One drinks a mother’s sorrow.
One drinks the terror of silence.
Another feeds upon a lover’s absence,
Upon letters unsent,
Upon funerals replayed behind shut eyes.
And still they hunger.
They crawl unseen through dreaming,
Pressing themselves to recollection
Until joy grows thin and grief becomes familiar.

In fevered nights they gather,
Those thousand hungry mouths,
Around the trembling chambers of thought,
Draining certainty, deepening shadows,
Teaching the soul the old language of dread.

Thus men wake unrested,
Their hearts heavy with unnamed weather,
Their minds crowded by ghosts that bear no faces.
For Grimvael has passed near.
The Sleepless Serpent remembers
what mortals bury.

He keeps the inventory of wounds.
He nests in unfinished mourning.
He winds himself through forgotten corridors
where fear drinks quietly from memory.

And when the candle dims low,
When the house falls mute,
When sleep comes thin and fractured,
You may feel him.
A pressure in the dark.
A thought returning unbidden.
A sorrow without origin.

Then know,
Beneath the trembling chambers of your mind,
Grimvael stirs, sleepless, and eternal,

his black mouth open,
his thousand suckers fastening softly,
to the fragile edges of your memory,

Feeding,
Feeding,
Feeding.

Beyond The Weeping Gate

I’ve been me so many times now,
That I am lost in the echoes of myself;
I hear them calling, hear them calling,
From beyond the weeping gate.

There the shadows kneel in silence,
Wearing masks I abandoned in softer years,
Their mouths stitched shut with old confessions,
Their eyes like drowned lanterns beneath black water.
They beckon without movement,
A congregation of former griefs,
Gathered where memory rots in black corridors,
And time hangs damp with suffering.

The house within me has grown cavernous,
Its stairways descending into impossible rooms
Where sorrow sits upright beside the fire,
A patient dust covered harbinger of grief.
It knows me by every mask I have worn,
Calls each by name in the language of mourning,
And pours black wine into trembling hands
That no longer remember which flesh is mine.

I hear them calling, hear them calling,
The selves I starved, the selves I feared,
The silent twins of all my failures,
Their fingers pale upon the rusted latch.
Beyond the weeping gate they gather,
Neither wholly dead nor wholly memory,
Waiting where the dark folds inward,
Where sorrow flowers into sullen shapes.

For doom has lived beside me always,
A patient guest seated near the fire,
Its hands folded neatly in shadow,
Its smile thin as winter beneath the skin.
It speaks not of endings but of returning,
Of circles drawn in grief and dust,
Until I no longer know if I am haunted,
Or merely wandering the ruins of myself.

The Haunted Halls Within

Torment, torment, anxiety brings such sweet sorrow,
The dim grinding of gears within a mind left dark and hollow,
I have waxed lyrical on my fears, on my oldest friend named Death,
Who lingers at my threshold, patient, cold, awaiting my final breath,
His presence is an icy murmur threaded deep through marrow’s ache,
A keeper of forgotten names and vows I failed to make,
Yet still I pace these haunted halls where fractured thoughts convene,
Among the rust and ruin of all that might have been,
For ignorance bears honeyed lips while poison stains her tongue,
And grief hums ancient hymns where youth once brightly sung,
While somewhere in the blackened hush beyond this mortal veil,
A deathly silence waits for me, with open arms forever pale.